f you ask me if I am all fine, I could tell you, No, I am not. I will never be Okay. Since the day your gone, everything changed. I know it was all my fault telling you I wanted a separation but that was not what I really wished. I thought you would be holding me hard and firm enough not to let me go but it happened the other way round. What I really hoped was you telling me "everything is gonna be alright. We can endure this, nothing is gonna pull us down, our love is strong!" Maybe I was wrong. Our love is too soon to be tested, perhaps.

I am all down for not being able to fix all these mess. It is my nightmare, those words keep popping in my head saying we are just FRIENDS. I try hard to deny it but it does not do any good. Instead, it makes me feel even worse. I hate it much when you told me I love you but as a friend, too. My heart sank deep down into the sea. That's definitely killed a big whole part of me. I wonder, is that what you really want? us being friends? that's all? To me, I want more, I always want more from this, you know it.

I have been telling myself not to think of you always but it does not work that way. I never know it would be that tiring to keep telling someone "I love you, I miss you" when our love ignores all those feeling. It hurts too much and I try not to think of it. I guess you have started forgetting me, trying hard to erase me from your life, aren't you? How am I supposed to live without that horror thought for the rest of my life?

You told me you love me? Or it supposed to be loveD? I realize there's no forever you and me from our conversation. I hate being replaced by another girl, I could not accept that fact, please forgive me. No matter how much love you have for me in this life time, it will disappear once you have found your love. My tears keep falling, my heart is aching, reminiscing our past. I know my words has done the damage till your heart is refusing to accept my apology. Everything messed up, you and me are back to the place where we belong? We are not meant to be together? Please tell me we are...

I wanted to cry in your arms because that's where I wanted to stay. I wanted to find you because that's where I was supposed to be. I wanted to tell you I love you because you are my prince. But why? why did we end up like this? I love you still. Day by day my love towards you is blossoming and it cannot be stopped anymore. I am sorry.

Please come back to me. I am falling apart without you in my life. Are you feeling the same like I do? And, I just want to tell you...I MISS YOU ALREADY...